Stained Hands

Drip, Drop,
Drip, Drop,

His blood
Poured through
Her hands...
He had died
Jumping in
Front of her
Died helping
Her live...
Now her hands
Were stained
Like her heart
Her soul
Her...life
She died
Tonight
By his side
so that they
Could dream
Internally Together
She stained
Her hands
and drowned
in love and
death,tonight

Drip Drop...

Living Life...

Living a life so sweet

Living it as long as I can

Running from the problems

Running far away

Taking deep breath

Taking you to stay

With me forever

With me till the end

I'm Living Life so sweet

With You...

xoxo

Chaos

Cause to Love You <3

I miss you...
I can't say your name without crying anymore
I can't be with someone without thinking about you
You've given me everything
And I slowly ripped it to shreds when I left...
I do love you, I've realized
At least the type of love teenagers get
The one they never forget
Their first love...
Cause loving you,
Does really mean so so much more...

<3

To All My Friends

I dedicate this song and post to you
Remember all the good times we had
All the bad ones too
Remember in the end
I'll always love all of you!

To DOTM!!!

To the girls, whom I have spent five years

Talking to on the phone,

Sleeping at their houses,

Crying on their shoulders,

Telling secrets to,

Making fun of,

Pranking,

Living the life with...

Hope it always stays the same...

To Catty, Vanessa, and Jimena,

Love,

Serena

Adventures...

To Beatriz
My younger sister
Because with you
I have THIS much fun
Because our adventures
Are as crazy as Lilo and Stitch

and because we're Ohana (family)!

POCOYO DANCA!!!

To Squishy

Itty Tata

My little brother

Because you make

me laugh

and because we

love to watch this show

together

MUAHZ

Chaos

Fall For You

To Mike,

Because with you

Everything seems

To be brighting slowly

Because you showed me

How to believe in magic

Because we've fought,

And made up,

Because you've helped me.

Because for five years

You never gave up on me

And now I refuse to give

Up on you...

xoxo

Chaos

Dedicating it all! ^_^

Today, I've got tons of dedications. In light that Thanksgiving is coming soon I've decided to show everyone in my life how thankful I am to have them there...So here it is to all of you, who make my days brighter, who shatter my shadows, who make me laugh, who take me to wonderland everyday, and of course even those whose only smile can brighten my world... These next posts are dedicated to you....

Ricardo!

Pk ate kuando estamos

Separados pelo um oceano

Consegues me fazer rir

Pk ate kuando pensas k nao

Estou a pensar em ti

Why I picked this song for you?

Open your eyes sweetheart

I care...

There's a whole new world

Right in front of you!

Gummy Bears and Lollipops

To BRIAN....WHOOO

I have to dedicate something to you,

Because I wouldn't be anywhere without you.

My mano, my brother, one of my best friends...

Why I picked this song? Easy....

Because with you nothing can be normal, or any less fun...:P

ily

xoxo

Chaos

You!

Today I posted three times because all of my posts are dedicated to some of the most special men in my life. And I believe each one of them deserves his own post. So here I am for the second time today hoping you enjoy...

To Tyler,

This song is here for many reasons,

One, because with you I'm not afraid to be myself

Two, because I love you that much

Three, because with you I think of the future

Four, because you help me trust myself and others,

Five, because no one plays the games we play

And lastly because me...

I see you...

Once Upon a December...

To Nathan,

Someone I can't live without...

Because even though we don't remember

You said you'd marry me someday,

Because even though you call me Granger

You still jumped in that pool with me...

Because even though we've fought a million times

You stilled hugged me when I cried on your shoulder,

Because even though I won't admit it outloud

I couldn't live without knowing that,

Once upon that december

You didn't trade me for her...

Neverland...

To you my love,

To the dreams we once had, and the ones that will follow us through life. To the wise words that flow through our minds, and our child's heart at play. Because you love the story, and because I love you...I dedicate My Neverland to you...

May we never grow up...

Your Very First Lost Girl

Ever feel like that?

Lungs without air?

Ever taken such a trip?

That your breath was taken away?

Have you ever stood there?

Smiling when you want to cry?

Have you ever dreamnt of swimming with the stars?

Kissing in the rain?

Ever taken a trip down that road?

Ever went swimming with sharks?

Jumped in a pool fully clothed?

Ever dreamed the entire day?

Ever been so recless, people thought you crazy?

Have You?

Been there I mean...

To that little place in your mind,

Where you're dreams soar,

And your fears diminish.

Have you taken a fall?

That makes your heart stop?

That makes you close your eyes,

And dream of another day?

Have you left your heart to them,

to decide whether to break or fill?

Have you ever been saved?

Or even dreamed of reaching there?

Have you traveled Neverland?

Wished to never come back?

Have you ever hoped not grow up?

And worken up to see you're another day older?

Have you?

I have, done all these things...

And in the end, I'm still standing here,

Without Air,

Yet somehow finding a way to breath...

xoxo,

Chaos

Chaos

I'm back I know...took me long enough. So the point of this blog was to BS a lot. And personally I like to bs...a lot, but unfortunately that is just not working for me anymore. I know surprised...not as much as I am. I am of course unable to say that of all the weird, chaotic things I have talked about I did not talk about the weirdest and most chaotic of them all.

Yeah, I'm talking about...Moi.

I mean my pen name is Chaos, and there is of course tons of reasons why I chose that name for myself here are a few of the top, oh I don't know, 100.

4. Everyone says its the only way to describe me in general.

3. It describes the perfectly the mess in my mind that i thoroughly enjoy.

2.I can't seem to find a better way to describe my writings (as if you haven't noticed)

1. Basically it describe my life overall...

So when I say I must talk about all things Chaotic I must first talk about myself. After all it is only right that all humans should be selfish once in a while and I have decided it is right now that I want to be selfish. I am going to try to be as "honest" about myself as I can.

I'm young, (enough not to tell you all my age), yet my brain seems to be a million years old. It has little flashes where it just sends me into a wise and strange world. I daydream a lot and have mostly nightmares at night. (Which I had one last night, oh my god...) *small chuckle* uh...did I mention i get distracted? Well not as much as Kika but still.

I'm extremely clumsy and many say I'm a danger magnet, have a death wish, or am just plain uncoordinated. My mom describes as "If there was a large empty room with a single nail sticking out in one place I would find a way to walk over that nail and trip on it...." so yeah...

I love to write (as if you haven't noticed). My mother also had the pleasure of saying that "My daughter's favorite sport is sitting in front of a computer writing stories". Mothers, don't you just love 'em.

I have a knack of being depressing, and I try to lighten the mood and be happy, so that it doesn't annoy people. Because seriously how many of you want to be around people that are always throwing pity parties, right? I complain a lot, again you've probably noticed it before. I am also extremely sarcastic. Which you don't need telling to.

*Guys*

I have a lot of guy friends. Mostly because I think most girls are ruthless bitches whom i hate to put up with (I say this because I am a girl and I know how we are)

I'm much rather into a guy who is BRUTALLY HONEST with me rather than ROMANTIC...I mean being romantic is nice, but the truth benefits me more.

I am very blunt towards people, that often gets me into trouble. I have no secrets and I will tell you everything I think of you to your face (in the right place, at the right time). I would appreciate it if you did the same to me. I don't hate or talk shit about you just because a friend of mine thinks you're a bitch/whore/etc... Before I talk I make sure what I'm saying is 100% true.

I'm usually called a whore, (again a lot of guy FRIENDS!!! Nothing more). I get frustrated and really pissed off at the smalled things and therefore it gives me an anger management problem. Only because I hold my pain/anger to the point where it causes me physical pain. So please for my own health sake and yours as well Don't piss me off.

I love all my friends, and can't stand hearing someone even thinking about talking crap about them. If you have a problem with a friend of mine, do me and the rest of the world a favor, and keep it between the two of you because if you so much as even come to me about them well...(God bless your soul and the rest of the people standing in the room that will have to hear the stream of profanities that will become something my eighth grade teacher called "verbal diarrhea..."

I'm absolutely done talking about myself, my flaws, and my well...you know other things (I personally wouldn't call them strengths.

I feel very tired and unfortunately can't seem to think of a good way to end this post. It wasn't exactly what I was thinking of putting up here but that's what I came up with...So to all you faithful readers...

I less then three you (<3)

(Get it?)

xoxo

luv

Chaos