Monday, December 8, 2008

These Little Wonders



I have recentely become in love with this genre of music. Mostly because it helps me get through the day. It keeps me sane, but even more than that, it helps me remember the great times I've had with wonderful people that surround me in my best and worst times, and helps me remember that I'll still have a million little wonders to make with you!

So this post is dedicating for all of you who make me feel special in everyway possible!

Tyler
Brian
Michael
Eve
Erika
Angie
Vinicios
Sara
Vaughn
Sabrina
Karen
Nathan
Chris
Guga
Michelle
Nikki
Stephen
Beatriz
Tata


And the many more that will always be in my heart!

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Beautiful Disaster

I've come to realize that I am not Beautiful. Oh, people tell me I have beautiful green-hazel eyes, my hair is silky and smooth and that I have nice pink lips. That's not my definition of beautiful...

Beautiful isn't blue eyes
Beautiful isn't blonde hair
It isn't being popular
Or dressing nice

Beautiful is being considerate
It's having a heart and soul
It's caring about others
It's helping, even when one refuses it.

It's being loving
It's huggin someone (because you know they need it)
It's kissing (because your so in love)
It's laughing, when you want to cry

It's walking in the rain
And dancing for an entire day
Just because you feel like it
Because it makes someone else smile

Beautiful is being beautiful on the inside
It's wanting it all and giving it all up...
It's not selfish, or rude
Being beautiful is knowing love

Love...
Is always patient and kind,
It's never jealous,
Love is never boastful or conceited
It is never rude or selfish,
It does not take offense,
And it is not resentful...

Being beautiful is being in love
And letting someone love you back
To be beautiful you must be in love
With someone, something, somewhere...

To be beautiful you have to be a beautiful disaster...

Beautiful disaster...The chaos behind every love story!


-Chaos


Legal Disclaimer: The paragraph above explain love is from the movie "A Walk to Remember,". I therefore do not own it or claim to.

Friday, December 5, 2008

Feast Of Love



OFFICIALLY one of my favorite movies. So it isn't full of action and it kind of just feels like your watching people live their love lives but I found it extremely romantic. Somehow it made it impossible not to feel the excruciating pain that built up in my heart when Oscar died. All I could think of was "Just like real life. All the good guys have to meet the bad end of the story." The one guy who fell in love at first sight, who loved, and who wouldn't hurt the woman he loved if it killed him inside not to. Gone. I cried, as corny as that sounds. I actually cried.

Rating: *****

Chaos

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Leave (Get Out)



Leave (Get Out)
JOJO

I've been waiting all day for ya babe
So won't cha come and sit and talk to me
And tell me how we're gonna be together always
Hope you know that when it's late at night
I Hold on to my pillow tight
And think of how you promised me forever(I never thought that anyone)
Could make me feel this way(Now that you're here boy all I want)
Is just a chance to say

Get Out, (leave) right now,
It's the end of you and me
It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
'Cause I know about her (who) and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies
You said that you would treat me right but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

Tell me why you're looking so confused
When I'm the one who didn't know the truth
How could you ever be so cold
To go behind my back and call my friend Boy you must have gone and bumped your head
Because you left her number on your phone(So now after all is said and done)
Maybe I'm the one to blame but(To think that you could be the one)
Well it didn't work out that way

Get Out, (leave) right now,
It's the end of you and me
It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
'Cause I know about her (who) and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies
You said that you would treat me right but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

I wanted you right here with me but I have no choice you've gotta leave
Because my heart is breakin'
With every word I'm sayin'I gave up everything I had
On something that just wouldn't last
But I refuse to cry
No tears will fall from theseEyeee-eeee-eeees Ooooh, ooooh
Get out

Get Out, (leave) right now, It's the end of you and me
It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
'Cause I know about her (who) and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies
You said that you would treat me right but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

Get Out, (leave) right now, It's the end of you and me
It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
'Cause I know about her (who) and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies
You said that you would treat me right but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

Get out (leave)

You and me
It's too late (too late)
You ohh Bout her (who, why)
You said that you would treat me right (noooo)
but it was just a waste of time (waste of time)
Ohhhh oh oh oh hoh oh

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Stranded in the Storm


Heii everyone, so today is an EXTRE EXTRA EXTRA long post and I hope not to bore you all. Here is the beginning to a story I have been working on. It isn't finished yet, and it was inspired by a few novels I have been reading lately. I hope you all enjoy and feel free to comment and tell me what you think!

xoxo

Chaos


Viscount Nathaniel Malden sucked in a cold breath. It had been hours since he had entered his coach and set off from London. His coach was no protection from the bitter cold outside, it seeped through the cracks of the door and the windows on either side.

Nathaniel blew warm breaths into his gloved hand and reminded himself why he was on this trip in the first place. His permanent estate was in London, where he had lived with his grandmother for years. Where he had his money, his home, his life. Where he was very happy, indeed.

His father's abusive grip on him had been hard to break. When he'd formed the right plan and been able to escape however he had been lucky enough that his maternal grandmother had taken him int the moment he showed up on her doorstep in London.

Grandmother Perks was a very strong willed widow that ruled her home with an iron fist. His father hadn't been able to get a single glimpse at him once and left when he saw that his attempts were to no avail.

Nathaniel thought that his father's first act would be to disown him and remove him from his right to the Malden fortuned. So when the letter came he almost fell of his chair. Apparently along with his fortune he also inherited his title. His father had died only a few weeks ago, and had not modified his will at all.

Now, here he road on the snowy dirt roads, Viscount Nathaniel Malden. He whispered it to himself softly. It seemed so strange coming from his own lips. Almost like a profanity that mustn't ever be muttered to anyone.

He was riding to New Castle, ready to legalize everything with his lawyers and the banks. He sighed thinking of everything he had ahead of him was beginning to give him a headache. He looked outside the window but the cold had fogged it up making it opaque with little light and visibility. He sighed and once again blew warm breath into his gloves as he rubbed his hands together and leaned back.

His father had left him a great sum of money, and property. The large Malden Manor was made of white stone and the pillars that stood on its front launched high into the air, to where one would have to coil their neck back to see the top of it. Then there were the gardens and the grounds, the barns and much more. Or so you remember

He looked towards the window once more when the coach screech to a stop. Nathaniel flew off his seat and landed on the other side, using his arms to protect his face as he was thrust against the carriage wall.

A muttered a profanity and opened the carriage door. Stepping out into the cold December air that whisked past his face and child his ears to the point where they felt like they would fall off his face. He wrapped his coat around him tighter and walked towards his coachman.

He was calming the horses down as they neighed in protest to the abrupt stop. Once they were somewhat calm Nathaniel turned to him.

“What's happened?” he asked.

“The bridge is cut off m'lord,” the coachman answered in a strong Scottish accent, as he made his way round towards him. “I reckon there's ice beneath all that'a snow. Horses ain't prepared to go on it. 'Sides the storm is 'coming harsher m'lord. Ain't no way we're getting to the next town tonight.” the coachman explained. Nathaniel cursed under his breath. He had been hoping to get a bit farther tonight.

“'Side 'osses ain't gonna take the cold much longer, 'nd I ain't either m'lord. Reckon we'ave to try and rouse someone,” he went on patting a horse as he explained. Nathaniel nodded and looked around. He felt a bit drowsy himself, maybe it was best to rest for the night. There in the midst of the harshly descending snow he saw the glow of a light. It was still too far to walk, about a twenty minute ride, by coach, he sighed.

“Can you take us there?” he pointed at the glowering light. “I'll see if we can stay for the night at least,” he exclaimed. The coachman stared at the light and nodded.

“Aye m'lord. I'll take us there,” he said. Nathaniel nodded and climbed back into the carriage as his coachman began to turn the horses halfway around. It was a few minutes before Nathaniel heard the coachman's yell and the carriage pulling away. He seated himself, deciding to use the twenty minutes still ahead of him to glower in the future that seemed to line up ahead of him.

When the coach stopped once more, and the door opened he stepped once again in the bitter wind. The wisps of cold air blew his lightened brown hair everywhere. Nathaniel stared out at the house in which they had just arrived.

It was almost as wonderful and grand as his residence in New Castle, or at least that's how he remembered it.

His hand found its way to the freezing brass knocked and he banged it harshly against the wooden door. He peered at the door carefully. It was made of thick oak, darkened greatly by age. The intricate details carved on the wood were astonishing. The fleur-de-lys he tought to himself. The Lily.

It took only a few moments before someone opened the door. The man inside was tall and dressed eloquently enough, but he was no Lord, Nathaniel reasoned. Most likely the butler. The man looked at him and opened the door widely.

“Yes, may I help you sir?” he asked. His voice was surprisingly low and deep. Nathaniel quickly thought over his lessons from when he was younger, preparing himself to answer in the most eloquent fashion possible.

“I am Viscount Malden. The road to town had frozen over and my coachman, and I need shelter for the night. I'd be grateful if you brought me to your master, and helped my coachman and horses” he asked. The butler's eyes grew wide.

“Of course m'lord, please follow me,” he said “I'll send someone to help your coachman and the horses,” he said. Nathaniel nodded and stepped into the house. He followed the man to a parlor, welcoming the heat of the fire on the way.

“May I take your overcoat, m'lord?” the butler asked once more. Nathaniel thanked him and asked for his name. The butler introduced himself as, Jarvis.

“If you excuse me m'lord, I shall inform Master Barker of your arrival,” Jarvis said. Nathaniel gave a curt nod and watched as the butler bowed and walked from the room. Nathaniel stood by the fire warming himself up as he waited.

He had never heard of Lord Barker, then again he'd never been to Ashby, before either. By the looks of his surroundings, however, he would say Lord Barker was well on money and acquaintance with the newest fashions.

Jarvis came back a moment later.

“Miss Quake, has informed me that Lord Barker was called away on business this morning. But she has agreed to see you herself, if you wish.” Nathaniel nodded and thanked Jarvis, noting to himself that he failed to mention Lord Barker's field of business. Jarvis bowed his way out once more leaving Nathaniel to thank for a only a few moments.

A second later a door opened on the far side of the parlor. Nathaniel could almost feel his mouth drop as he looked at Miss Quake for the first time. Thought the door had walked a grand beauty.
Dressed in a large, but flattering burgundy gown stood Miss Quaker. Her big hazel-green eyes shinned brightly with the glow of the fire, almost as if they held a flame in them as well. Her hair was a curled bushy mess on her head, a brown so hard, it reminded him of sweet-tasting chocolate.

He noted, though, that she had a petite figure, though definitely not lacking the curves where they were necessary. Her face was round, her nose was large and delicate. Her lips were small and pink, but the combination fit nicely on her. She smiled and walked towards him.

Giving him a small curtsy she stood before him, almost making Nathaniel's heart flutter. He gave her a courteous bow and too stood.

“Lord Malden, I am Abigail Quake,” she said. Her voice was sweet, like honey, he reasoned.


“Unfortunately my cousin has been called away on business this morning and will not be returning until after Yule. However, Jarvis has informed me you and your coachman need shelter for the night, yes?” she asked.

He had the oddest feeling she was holding back something in her voice. Almost as if she wanted to release such politeness and be free to speak in other manners. I know the feeling.

“Yes, ma'am. I would greatly appreciate it, if you would let us shelter here for only the night,” he spoked lightly. Abigail seemed very pleased with the fact of having guests. It was much a surprised, though, that her face fell slightly when he mentioned he'd only stay for the night. She recomposed herself though and smiled.

“Well then, I shall have Jarvis set up a room for you, and place your man under the care of one of our servants. I'll also tell him to hold back dinner for you, I'm sure you must come ravenous,” she said in a kind voice.

“Famished,” Nathaniel answered her thankfully. She nodded and called Jarvis in giving him her orders.

“I do hope everything is to your liking, m'lord” she smiled. Nathaniel felt something drop to his lower body.

“I'm sure it will be more than sufficient, ma'am,” he complimented.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Secret Affair


Do you remember?

It was high above the city

All the people looked miniscule

It was gray, the clouds in the sky...


We were on the very top of the roof

The very highest part,

When you took your hands from my eyes

I smiled at you...


My chest swelled up

My throat clogged

My stomach almost turned

A pleasureable pain filled me up


I wish it wouldn't end

You staring at me

I almost imagined it

Your eyes glistening down


I wondered what it was

About me

That kept you staring

I would ask


Then out of the blue...

I was against the wall

Oh so gently

Your arms around me


Your lips traveled mine

Your tongue teased my lip

Then I gasped

And we clashed


My mind went blank

I couldn't think

Only feel

My knees buckle


You held me up,

Today I sit

I daydream

And I laugh


We were such

Young Children

Where did it all go?

Where are we now?


Then you enter the room

My breath still catches

and I'm still so lost

And suddenly I remember


The secret affair is over...



But your still here...

Monday, December 1, 2008

Memoirs...

So today I have decided I am going to light up the mood!!! Here are a few pics of me and my friends! Enjoy:

This is one of my BFF Angie and I, this is her fav pic.


Angie painted me as super woman....hihi...dnt laugh!




Erika at her best!



What? It was a firedrill, we had nothing better to do!

Walking to Class!




Biology Yo!

My fav pic in Biology! We're so goofy!

I have many more, unfortunatelly I don't have the patience to put them all up...I might another time, if you ask me to (which you won't) but still. Hope this was an okay post.

xoxo

Chaos