Smile <3

Smile,
Breath and laugh
Forgive and forget
Dream of spring days
Days without regret...
Moving on isn't hard
I see a new beginning
The horizon isn't far
It is there for my taking..
I've dreamt of flying free
I've built my wings so far...
Tonight...
I take my flight
I shall run
Till I can no longer stand
Dream
Live
Love
Believe
Smile =]

xoxo

Chaos

I know this guy, and I think about him often. Now I know what you're thinking, I'm head over heels for him. I guess, maybe, not sure, really. But really what I think about when I think of him, is why I can't read him right. I mean I'm usually good at finding out what people are feeling, and what type of person they are. What their intentions will be, I'm good with people.

Not him though. I can't figure him out as hard as I try. He sent me a poem he wrote once. I'm going to show it to you guys, because he gave me permission to....

REALIST!

Realist

Yeah...

Imma realist

Sometimes people call me pessimistic

But I'm just being a realist

Always expecting things based on reason

Lookin for logic in decisions and outcomes

Acting in my own self-interest

Taking life in the worst way possible

But living realistically

Means no disappointments

But...

Something changed

I ventured into idealism

Not sure how it happened

But it did

It was fun

It was better

Things are better when you're an idealist

Its like a fairytale really

But its short lived

Or...

My trip on this drug called idealism was

Reality came knocking at the door

Yeah

Life is too cruel to be an idealist

Good things come to an end

And bad things end too

But worse things take their place

Calculation can be made

So that disappointment is avoided

But that climb down from idealism

Back into realism

Its rough

Its punishment

Its torture

Its a reality check

And rightfully so

Perhaps realism is my safety net

Something that...

Eliminates vulnerability

The world is ugly

But realism makes me strong

It prepares me to live

And survive

Yeah...

Imma realist

What I really can't figure out, is what could've happened to make him feel this way. It makes me confused, really. I look back at the poem every few days, I try to figure out what happened, what makes him feel this way...I really don't know. I wish I did.

xoxo

Chaos

Lakeland

So as many of you probably know, I'm part of the debate team. This weekend we went on an overnight trip to Lakeland Senior High School in New York. It was a suburbian High School, somewhere in the mountains, it was great for my cell phone reception, really. -_-

My partner, Ana, and I, were extremely nervous because this was our first big tournament as a team, we weren't so sure we would do well. We ended up doing just fine. We came home with a record of 5-2. Which was awesome in my opinon as a lot of the schools we went against, had awesome teams and help.

We ended up breaking to octives. We won against one of our own Newark teams from Science Park High School. It was really close though. We continued onto Quarter Finals, but we lost there.

I can't say I'm not sad, but hey, I think we did pretty well. I praise Ana alot, this was only her third tournament, and her first big tourney and she did awesome. Her speed was incredible and she really learned our case well. I think she did great and there was no way i was going to get where I did this weekend without her.

I got a third place best speaker award, which is cool I guess. But I want that first place one. I'm going to get it. I'm going to get a lot of them, just watch me. :)

I had a lot of fun. Eve, Ana, and I were in the same hotel room, which as you all already guessed was a recipe for disaster. Ana was completely traumatized. I don't blame her, poor girl. Eve and I kept throwing dirty jokes at each other, but then again, what else is knew. *goofy grin*

I did however had to put up with a lot of sexual comments from guys, that really made me want to stomp on their faces. Oh you know what I'm talking about. The whole "you and your partner are so hot, you know what I'd do? Permutation...do both" -_-

That was laaaaaaaame, and your absolute losers for coming up with debate jokes as pickup lines. Really bad pick up lines at that!

It was tough, and a lot of work, but I loved every moment of it. I want to do this for the rest of my life...I won't be able to debate forever, but I sure as hell am going to go and help others till I'm too old to leave my bed...

xoxo
Chaos

People Annoy Me!

So I've realized that a lot people annoy me at times. So I sat down (because I was EXTREMELY bored) and decided to make a list of what about people annoy me. So here is my top 10 list of things people do, or how they act that annoys me.

1. People who throw pity parties! "I'm ugly, I'm gonna be alone forever, nobody likes me," yeah, STFU. If you want a fucking compliment ask for one, don't go fishing for one, because the only thing you'll get from me is some very horrible profanities, that will leave you feeling like a total dick. Newsflash: throwing pity parties doesn't get people to feel sorry for you, it's just annoying as hell!

2. People who ask too many goddamn questions. Really is it necessary? Why is the sky blue? Because of it is. Why? cuz it is Why? CUZ IT JUST FUCKING IS! Do you really have to ask so many goddamn times?

3. People who insist on making you talk even when you don't want to. "What's wrong?" "Nothing, I don't want to talk about it?" "You sure it won't help you?" "I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT" If I said it the first time, I meant it! Okay, if I wanted to tell you I would. I didn't let go MORON!

4. People who don't have the sense to leave you alone when your busy. "What's up?" "Um...I'm doing a quiz right now," You'd think they would leave you alone because your OBVIOUSLY busy, no instead they answer "oh wow, is it hard?" -_- I rest my case

5. People who automatically assume I know them. Newsflash: I don't know you, I don't care about you. I probably don't even like you! So yeah...enough said.

6. People who ask stupid questions. I know, I know, someone once said that "there is no such thing as stupid questions" yeah, and whoever said it was a complete IDIOTIC MORON! okay? So don't ask me questions in which the answers are OBVIOUS!

7. When someone is a total immature prick, and then tries to make you look like an asshole. Ok, here's my advice to you "grow a dick, find someone to play with it" -_-

8. People who can non follow the most simple instructions known to man kind. Seriously. "sit, good boy, good boy. Now Stay!"....away from me preferably!

9. People who make things complicated. Life is NOT that complicated. PEOPLE make it complicated. Stop making a thunderstorm in a cup of water. Freakin' Drama Queens/Kings.

10. When you do something unintentionally to someone and they get "revenge" by doing the exact same thing...really? C'mon, is a little maturity too much to ask?

xoxo
Chaos

Miss Kiss Pitty! <3

When my younger sister, Beatriz, was nine, and I was twelve, we easily grew bored of staying home and playing in our yard. I turned myself into a writer, I wrote poems and worked on stories. My sister's creativity went up another level. She created a character, someone she could dress up as and act as, when she got bored.
Now you'd think a nine-year-old would want to make a princess, or a beautiful character. My sister's imagination was sky rocketing and of course that meant that the character would be just as weird.
She created, therefore, MISS KISS PITTY! A overweight, messy haired, makeup running, overly larged boob woman. Miss Kiss Pitty's motto is "You want a kissh?" Then she proceeds to give very sloppy, and disgusting kisses.

It's been years.

My sisters has grown up and is currently twelve years old, the age I was when she first created the character. Miss Kiss Pitty grew with her. Now I film her skits. None of them are ever rehearsed, they all go with the flow, and are out-of-the-moment spurs of pure genius.
She's created a few fans along the years. One of which is Brian Bertolo, who is considered her number 1 fan!

Miss Kiss Pitty grows more each year, and becomes funnier as her subjects of conversation change!

Check it out

xoxo
Chaos

The Best Things in Life.

The Good Things In Life!

1. Apaixonar-se. (fall in love)
2. Rir tanto até que as faces doam.(laugh so hard your face hurts)
3. Um chuveiro quente num Inverno frio.(hot shower on a cold winter)
4. Um supermercado sem filas nas caixas.(a supermarket with no lines to the register)
5. Um olhar especial.(a special look)
6. Receber correio (pode ser electrónico.....)(getting mail or email)
7. Conduzir numa estrada linda.(drive on a beautifull road)
8. Ouvir a nossa música preferida no rádio.(listen to our favorite song on the radio)
9. Ficar na cama a ouvir a chuva cair lá fora.(stay in bed listening to the rain)
10. Toalhas quentes acabadas de serem engomadas...( fresh hot towels out of the dryer)
11. Encontrar a camisola que se quer em saldo a metade do preço.(find your favorite expensive blouse on sale)
12. Batido de chocolate (baunilha ou morango).(chocolate, vanilla or strawberry shake)
13. Uma chamada de longa distância.(long distance call)
14. Um banho de espuma.(bubble bath)
15. Rir baixinho.(laugh softly)
16. Uma boa conversa.( good conversation)
17. A praia.(the beach)
18. Encontrar uma nota de 20 euros no casaco pendurado desde o último Inverno.(find a 20 dollar bill on a coat thats been away since last year)
19. Rir-se de si mesmo.(laugh at yourself)
20. Chamadas à meia-noite que duram horas.(calls at midnight that last hours)
21. Correr entre os jactos de água de um aspersor. (runing under the sprinklers)
22. Rir por nenhuma razão especial.(laugh for no reason)
23. Alguém que te diz que és o máximo.(some one that tells you, your the best)
24. Rir de uma anedota que vem à memória.(laugh at a joke you made up)
25. Amigos.(friends)
26. Ouvir acidentalmente alguém dizer bem de nós.(accidentelly listen to someone talk good things about you)
27. Acordar e verificar que ainda há algumas horas para continuar a dormir.(wake up and notice that you still have acouple more hours to sleep)
28. O primeiro beijo (ou mesmo o primeiro com novo parceiro).(first kiss)
29. Fazer novos amigos ou passar o tempo com os velhos.(make new friends or spend some time with old friends)
30. Brincar com um cachorrinho.(play with a puppy)
31. Haver alguém a mexer-te no cabelo.(have some one play with your hair)
32. Belos sonhos.(great dreams)
33. Chocolate quente.(hot chocolate)
34. Fazer-se à estrada com os amigos.( let the road take you with friends)
35. Balancear-se num balancé. (balancing yourself on a see-saw)
36. Embrulhar presentes sob a árvore de Natal comendo chocolates e bebendo a
bebida favorita.(wrap presents under the xmas tree eating chocolates and having your favorite drink)
37. Letra de canções na capa do CD para podermos cantá-las sem nos sentirmos
estúpidos.(read lyrics of songs on the cd cover so we can sing along)
38. Ir a um bom concerto.(go to a good concert)
39. Trocar um olhar com um belo/a desconhecido/a.(switch glances with a stranger)
40. Ganhar um jogo renhido. (winning a close game)
41. Fazer bolachas de chocolate.( make chocolate chip cookies)
42. Receber de amigos biscoitos feitos em casa.( receive homemade cookies from friends)
43. Passar tempo com amigos íntimos.( spend time with intimate friend)
44. Ver o sorriso e ouvir as gargalhadas dos amigos.( see a smile, hear a laughter from friends)
45. Andar de mão dada com quem gostamos.(hold hands with who we love)
46. Encontrar por acaso um velho amigo e ver que algumas coisas( boas ou
más) nunca mudam.(reunite with old friends and notice nothing has changed)
47. Patinar sem cair.(skate without falling)
48. Observar o contentamento de alguem que está a abrir um presente que lhe
ofereceste.(see how happy tou made a friend who is opening a present you just gave him/her)
49. Ver o nascer do sol.(watch the sun rise)
50. Levantar-se da cama todas as manhãs e agradecer outro belo dia.(get up in the morning and thank god for a another beautiful day)
51. E ver a tua cara a ler esta mensagem.( watch your face when you read this)

Amigos são anjos que nos levantam pelos pés quando as nossas asas não
conseguem lembrar de como se voa.

Friend are the angles that will pick us up when our wings dont remember how to fly.

xoxo
Chaos

P.S. Live the good things in life!

Best Kisses!

Why is love the thing people want the most?

Because it's the closest thing to magic we have...

Cuz sometimes you have to live in the moment...

xoxo

Chaos

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