Sunday, December 28, 2008

Ponder this...


14 Things to Ponder...


1. If one synchronized swimmer drowns, do they all have to drown?

2. If you choke a smurf, what color does it turn?

3. Why do they report power outages on TV?

4. Have you ever wondered how we got milk? What makes a person decide, "Hey I think I am gonna go over to that cow and pull on those things hanging down and drink whatever comes out.

5. Who's cruel idea was it to have an "s" in the word, lisp?

6. You know when you're at a red light and the person next to you moves up a couple inches you are compelled to move forward as well? Are we really making progress towards our destination? "Whew, I thought we were going to be late, but now that I'm nine inches closer I think I'll stop for coffee and a danish!"

7. If toast always lands butter-side down, and cats always land on their feet, what happens if you strap toast on the back of a cat and drop it?

8. Ignorance killed the cat. Curiosity was framed.

9. If I am happy and I know it and my face will surely show it, then why do I still have to clap my hands? What? You don't trust my face?

10. Curiosity killed the cat, satisfaction brought him back.

11. Chicken: The only thing you can eat before its born and after...

12. To people who say life is short. What the hell? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does.

13. If there was a pill, that taken once, gave you immortality, and the only side effect was continuous diarrhea for a year, would you take the pill?

14. You wore that same outfit the day after yesterday....do not tell me NO...

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

When Xmas Comes to Town

This post is dedicated to all who celebrate Christmas,
May you have blessed, bright, and magical Christmas...




La, la, la, la.....
I'm wishing on a star
And trying to believe
That even though it's far
He'll find me Christmas Eve
I guess that Santa's busy
Cause he's never come around
I think of him
When Christmas Comes to Town
The best time of the year
When everyone comes home
With all this Christmas cheer
It's hard to be alone
Putting up the Christmas tree
With friends who come around
It's so much fun
When Christmas Comes to Town
Presents for the children
Wrapped in red and green
All the things I've heard about
But never really seen
No one will be sleeping on
The night of Christmas Eve
Hoping Santa's on his way
When Santa's sleigh bells ring
I listen all around
The herald angels sing
I never hear a sound
When all the dreams of children
Once lost will all be found
That's all I want
When Christmas Comes to Town
That's all I want
When Christmas Comes to Town
xoxo
Chaos
Merry Christmas Everyone...

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Wishing...


My Impossible Wish list currently has two years. Here it goes in no particular order...

Impossible Wishes:
Receive a Star
Fly with the Wind
Jump into a River Fully Clothed
Dance in the Rain
Fall into a fountain fully clothed
Fall in Love
Give a piece of my mind to certain people
Smile when I want to cry
Find what I am truly searching for
Learn to Trust
Become a Doctor
Enjoy life to the fullest
Be 100% happy!

Well that's what I got so far.... I don't show this often so I appreciate nice comments, not naming anyone in particular... BRIAN! lol, what do you guys think?

xoxo
Chaos

Monday, December 22, 2008

Living Life


Ok I'm going to try and start something from now on. I'm going to put up a quote followed by the answer to a random question in the beginning of the post. Followed by the actual message I'm trying to portray! Here we go:

Quote:
The Best Things in life are unseen that's why we close our eyes when we kiss, cry, and dream...

Random Question:
What is your favorite brand of broccoli?
Um...I don't know... What???

Because sometimes you gotta:
Stop and smell the roses
Let your balloons fly high
Share a memory
Dance in the Rain
Hold a butterfly,
Jump in the river fully clothed
Play on the swings
And lay in the grass
Drift past the shore during the sunset
Watch the sun rise
Take lots of pictures
Watch the seasons change
Walk above the rocks
Spread the cheer
Make love
Walk barefooted in the sand
Jump around
Smile when you wanna cry
Feel the butterflies in your tummy
Kiss...


xoxo


Chaos

Saturday, December 20, 2008

May Angels Lead You In

Song: May Angels Lead You In
Artist: Jimmy Eat World



Cuz sometimes you feel so broken
All you can do is cry...

xoxo

Chaos

Friday, December 19, 2008

Q and A's...

Ok so over the course of time, people have sent me e-mails, texts, and just plain out blurbed weird and unusual questions. Today I'm going to answer them for you!!! (Smile if you happy!!!) In addition to these questions feel free to leave comments and ask more. Who knows if I can get another whole round of questions I might answer them.

But first off, I swear to all of you, that I will truthfully answer all questions posted here, and that all of you will ask in the future, on my blog!

Alright here we go...

Q- More intimate to you, a kiss or sex?

Haha, somehow I was expecting the better part of these questions to have something to do with sex, and guess what? I was right...

A- A kiss. I mean everyone tells you what an emotional experience sex is, it really isn't. When you go to the beach people pretty much see everything these days, we leave no imagination to other people. Now a kiss is something personal, the mouth is something sensual and not everyone is allowed near it. You can have sex with anyone- hence the act of prostitution but not everyone is allowed to kiss you.

Q- Do you have any naughty fetishes? If so name 'em.
A- ok, I literally cracked up when I saw this one. Um ok, so here begins he embarrassing, but I promised I would answer all questions truthfully so here it goes....I have always had a small fantasy of role playing, but I'd hardly call it a fetish.

Q- Is your Vagina bigger than mine?
A- Um okay Stacy, first I've never actually measured my vagina, or yours, so I wouldn't know.

Q-Do you love penis?
A- I'm bisexual so I guess I could say I like both penis and vagina. Does that answer it?

Q-For how long can you bend over?
A- Oh my God, I can' believe someone actually asked me this! I don't know I don't usually bend over that way, and I don't time myself at it. lol

Q-Is your nipple big or small?
A- Once again Stacy, how the hell am I supposed to know that? I don' measure my nipples or other people therefore I wouldn't know what the average would be.

Q-How many times do you suck Dick a day?
A- Lol, I don't usually suck dick, so none.

Q- What do you do during the shower?
A- Haha, I know what you mean by that, but no, I don't do that!!! Not in the shower anyway, lol. So I wash myself in the shower!

Q-Do you have a foot fetish?
A- This one makes me wonder what people think when they read my blog. Do I give any hint of having a foot fetish? Have I ever even talked about feet? No, I do not have, or have ever had, a foot fetish.

Q-Long-term or short-term relationships?
A- Definitely Long-term. Even though I've only had one long-term relationship, that's the type I want.

Q- How long are your showers?
A- On average 30 min- 1 hour. When I'm tired they've gone up to three hours, then the water went cold. When I'm hurrying ten minutes or less.

Q-When did you feel like your life wasn't important.
A- Um- I can't exactly pin point a time and date, but various times.

Q-Do you ever smell your socks? To check if they're dirty or clean?
A- Um, no I don't smell my socks. And when I've used socks I usually put them in the dirty laundry basket so I don't really have a reason to smell them.

Q-How random can you be?
A- I don't think I'm that random. Oh my God, its snowing outside!!!! Um, then again, maybe pretty random.

Q-How conceited are you?
A- HAHA, very. My ego is overly large but we all know we love it! So yes I'm very conceited, with some moderation.

Q-If you had a brother who was the sexiest man in the world, and I mean everyone would just love him even gay men what would you do?
A- Whoa, this one is tough. Um, I'd probably be depressed of living in his shadows. Then I'd probably end up feeling attracted and commit suicide. Lol, um actually I don't know what I would do, but if Tata ever becomes that guy, I'll let you know.

Q- If you could be an animal which would you be? And since your nickname is chaos which animal do you think represents that image?
A- If I could be an animal I would be a lioness. A powerful and strong animal, who in the pride of lions is the one that hunts, that births, and that of course attracts the male lion. A powerful and responsible female, in the animal kingdom.
Haha, Chaos? I would probably think that the animal who would best represent my nickname would be a monkey? A total chaotic animal, who is just plain crazy! MONKEY!

Q-If you were in High School Musical, what would your solo song be about?
A- I don't really enjoy High School Musical, but really I loved this question. My solo would probably be about me going crazy and causing the end of the world, that or revenge.

So that's it, for now at least. Thanks to Tyler, Michael, Brian, Stacy, Alice, and Jessica all who submitted questions. This post is for you, guys!

Haha, this post looks kinda christmasy, doesn't it?
xoxo
Chaos

Monday, December 15, 2008

I Miss Those Times ♥

Today's post is something fun! I asked my mano what I should blog about and he came up with this great idea of all our favorite t.v. shows from when we were young. So I asked some people for their opinions and here are the top 5!

5- Tiny Toons: Remember them? When they used to try and be the next Lonney Tunes? Oh C'mon you gotta love the CHAOS! Here's a little vid, to see if you remember!




4- Pokemon!!!- Oh come on Like you even need a video to remember this one! Ash??? C'mon! Are you serious who didn't pretend to own a pokemon when they were younger?

3- Rugrats- You probably don't need remind of this one. The famous lines will never run out of style "Holds on to your diapers babies, we're going in!" and of course my fav "We've gots to save Dill!". Who didn't love the little toddlers that set off into numerous mischievous adventures, lead by their brave leader Tommy?




2- Sesame Street- Probably the oldest of all. Hahaha, who doesn't remember the COOKIE MONSTER??? Or ELMO? C'mon I still sing to that song...



Lady's and Gentlemen, you've waited. You've watched the videos, now it's time to disclose on the number one most loved show of our infancy...yes I bet you've guessed it!










1-BARNEY!!!!!- That little purple dinosaur that came to life and taught you all you needed to know about life and being 8 years old! We could never forget him. Besides admit or not, you know you always wanted to be one of the kids on the show!




So I hope you guys enjoyed this post. I had fun listening to people's opinions and writing this! Leave a comment if you please!

*Note: The teletubies were just plain annoying alright? I apologize to all of you who loved Lala and Po!

xoxo

Chaos

Thursday, December 11, 2008

I'm a Debate Geek...


First off I'd like to thank Chris for inspiring my title. We had a two second conversation about how we're both debate gueeks and proud, and after we got to that conclusion I decided to make this post. I have actually been planning it for a few days, but I kept forgetting when I came to post.


So here it is, now that I've remembered...


I AM A DEBATE GUEEK!


And I'm obviously not going to go over ever single detail of debate because that would take hours and even I don't know everything yet. However I can go over some things like, why I like debate, and why I'm proud to be a debate gueek.


Besides the fact that I meet tons of new people from everywhere, and even crush on some of them *wink wink*.


I love the rush, of being up there on stage getting your point across, having someone actually listen to you and then of course the arguing with the other side. The different ways you can get someone and completely destroy their arguments, and yet they have just as much chance to destroy yours.


Of course the rush part isn't even until there. It's part where you have no idea what's going on and you have to completely come up with your arguements right on the spot. The rush of making it up as it goes, and succeeding in killing the other argument with something that just came to you!


So this post may not be the greatest in the histroy of my blog (which by the way is now 7 months!!!) But it makes me happy to be nerdy and like this type of stuff, it makes me feel good with myself.


So here is to all those debaters that may secretely read my page (there are probably very (if any) of you.


To end this post the only Girl who could pull a chaotic kiss and hug chain ...


xOxoxoxoXo


Chaos

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

You and Me ♥


This is my own little poem structure. It's a bit weird but I think it ended up quite nicely! Comment if you wish. Tell me what you think!


You and Me
Deep Breaths
Relaxing Modes
Shifting Winds
Calming Breaths
...................Need
The need, the want,
for you, your body.
Your kiss, your smile,
Your voice...
Your soul and mind
I've longed for bodies
I've longed for attention
But from you?
I long so much more
I long for your opinion
For your thoughts
Need your soul
Your whispers in the nights.
I don't need the body
By my side each day
Do not believe it
Will help anyway
I need support
Like a flower with a broken stem
Need so much,
That is in your hand

So I hoppe you finaly realize
Finally believe,
That's this is real,
This...is you and me

-Chaos

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Contra Veritas <3



I have two poems today, I feel very tired and a little sappy, so this is what I came up with! Hope you guys enjoy, and leave comments please they make me happy!
In My Heart <3
In my heart
Ever since that day
Bear love
Talking in every way
I miss you
I need you
Take me away,
Love me,
Against All Odds
Against the current of the Ocean!
Fly away with me
Together, the northen winds and us!
The hills will watch us
The sunlight will envy our love
We don't have to let it go...
So the odds are against us,
So we might not have the best of times
The God's are on our side
Let me into your heart,
Let me into your soul
Into your life...
You might not be able to ask
The same of me
Because, dare I say it
You're already there!
On That Porch <3
Once again I sit on that porch
Empty Handed and tear-filled
I used to dream of the days
When you'd walk down the path
Gardenias in hand...unspoken love
I reminisce on the days when...
When you were honest with me
Days where you loved me
I smile and laugh at the memories!
Remember when we jumped,
Into Darla's pool fully clothed?
Remember when we flew,
Across the sky on a plane?
We ran from the world.
You promised me forever...
Once again I sit on that porch
Then you walk down the path
Tulips in hand...my favorite flower
I don't have to reminisce,
They may not know it,
We may not have forever,
But we have right now...
Sitting on this porch!
Contra Veritas- Against All Odds

Monday, December 8, 2008

Kiss...Keep It Simple!


So today I'm posting twice! Comment if your happy! :) (dat was my own little way of begging. gosh don't tell anyone)!

This post comes from the one inspiration where if it was any less sensual it wouldn't be her...Yeah I'm talking about Eve.

In case anyone reading this right now isn't familiar with this fact (I highly doubt it) I am bisexual. So my dear darling friend eve decided on saturday to have very highly sensual conversation with me about this fact! o_O

Moving on, she asked me which kiss I like better a girl's, or a guy's. I answered her in a highly poetic way, and apperantelly my eyes were glazed as I answered because she made fun of me for it. THANK YOU IVELISSE!

You such a whore, I love you!

So here is my answer (for all of you who think this might be amusing) and why I think so!

A Guy's Kiss is preferable to me!

A Girl's kiss is sensual,
It's soft and caring
It's tapping every so often
And only when you are completely comfortable
Does it actually involve the tongue
It caresses your lips
It makes you feel beautiful.

A Guy's kiss is hot
It's needy, and full of hunger
It's greedy and rough
A Guy's kiss caresses the tongue
It's passionate
It makes your insides burst
It makes you feel wanted

-Chaos

These Little Wonders



I have recentely become in love with this genre of music. Mostly because it helps me get through the day. It keeps me sane, but even more than that, it helps me remember the great times I've had with wonderful people that surround me in my best and worst times, and helps me remember that I'll still have a million little wonders to make with you!

So this post is dedicating for all of you who make me feel special in everyway possible!

Tyler
Brian
Michael
Eve
Erika
Angie
Vinicios
Sara
Vaughn
Sabrina
Karen
Nathan
Chris
Guga
Michelle
Nikki
Stephen
Beatriz
Tata


And the many more that will always be in my heart!

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Beautiful Disaster

I've come to realize that I am not Beautiful. Oh, people tell me I have beautiful green-hazel eyes, my hair is silky and smooth and that I have nice pink lips. That's not my definition of beautiful...

Beautiful isn't blue eyes
Beautiful isn't blonde hair
It isn't being popular
Or dressing nice

Beautiful is being considerate
It's having a heart and soul
It's caring about others
It's helping, even when one refuses it.

It's being loving
It's huggin someone (because you know they need it)
It's kissing (because your so in love)
It's laughing, when you want to cry

It's walking in the rain
And dancing for an entire day
Just because you feel like it
Because it makes someone else smile

Beautiful is being beautiful on the inside
It's wanting it all and giving it all up...
It's not selfish, or rude
Being beautiful is knowing love

Love...
Is always patient and kind,
It's never jealous,
Love is never boastful or conceited
It is never rude or selfish,
It does not take offense,
And it is not resentful...

Being beautiful is being in love
And letting someone love you back
To be beautiful you must be in love
With someone, something, somewhere...

To be beautiful you have to be a beautiful disaster...

Beautiful disaster...The chaos behind every love story!


-Chaos


Legal Disclaimer: The paragraph above explain love is from the movie "A Walk to Remember,". I therefore do not own it or claim to.

Friday, December 5, 2008

Feast Of Love



OFFICIALLY one of my favorite movies. So it isn't full of action and it kind of just feels like your watching people live their love lives but I found it extremely romantic. Somehow it made it impossible not to feel the excruciating pain that built up in my heart when Oscar died. All I could think of was "Just like real life. All the good guys have to meet the bad end of the story." The one guy who fell in love at first sight, who loved, and who wouldn't hurt the woman he loved if it killed him inside not to. Gone. I cried, as corny as that sounds. I actually cried.

Rating: *****

Chaos

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Leave (Get Out)



Leave (Get Out)
JOJO

I've been waiting all day for ya babe
So won't cha come and sit and talk to me
And tell me how we're gonna be together always
Hope you know that when it's late at night
I Hold on to my pillow tight
And think of how you promised me forever(I never thought that anyone)
Could make me feel this way(Now that you're here boy all I want)
Is just a chance to say

Get Out, (leave) right now,
It's the end of you and me
It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
'Cause I know about her (who) and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies
You said that you would treat me right but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

Tell me why you're looking so confused
When I'm the one who didn't know the truth
How could you ever be so cold
To go behind my back and call my friend Boy you must have gone and bumped your head
Because you left her number on your phone(So now after all is said and done)
Maybe I'm the one to blame but(To think that you could be the one)
Well it didn't work out that way

Get Out, (leave) right now,
It's the end of you and me
It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
'Cause I know about her (who) and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies
You said that you would treat me right but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

I wanted you right here with me but I have no choice you've gotta leave
Because my heart is breakin'
With every word I'm sayin'I gave up everything I had
On something that just wouldn't last
But I refuse to cry
No tears will fall from theseEyeee-eeee-eeees Ooooh, ooooh
Get out

Get Out, (leave) right now, It's the end of you and me
It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
'Cause I know about her (who) and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies
You said that you would treat me right but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

Get Out, (leave) right now, It's the end of you and me
It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
'Cause I know about her (who) and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies
You said that you would treat me right but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

Get out (leave)

You and me
It's too late (too late)
You ohh Bout her (who, why)
You said that you would treat me right (noooo)
but it was just a waste of time (waste of time)
Ohhhh oh oh oh hoh oh

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Stranded in the Storm


Heii everyone, so today is an EXTRE EXTRA EXTRA long post and I hope not to bore you all. Here is the beginning to a story I have been working on. It isn't finished yet, and it was inspired by a few novels I have been reading lately. I hope you all enjoy and feel free to comment and tell me what you think!

xoxo

Chaos


Viscount Nathaniel Malden sucked in a cold breath. It had been hours since he had entered his coach and set off from London. His coach was no protection from the bitter cold outside, it seeped through the cracks of the door and the windows on either side.

Nathaniel blew warm breaths into his gloved hand and reminded himself why he was on this trip in the first place. His permanent estate was in London, where he had lived with his grandmother for years. Where he had his money, his home, his life. Where he was very happy, indeed.

His father's abusive grip on him had been hard to break. When he'd formed the right plan and been able to escape however he had been lucky enough that his maternal grandmother had taken him int the moment he showed up on her doorstep in London.

Grandmother Perks was a very strong willed widow that ruled her home with an iron fist. His father hadn't been able to get a single glimpse at him once and left when he saw that his attempts were to no avail.

Nathaniel thought that his father's first act would be to disown him and remove him from his right to the Malden fortuned. So when the letter came he almost fell of his chair. Apparently along with his fortune he also inherited his title. His father had died only a few weeks ago, and had not modified his will at all.

Now, here he road on the snowy dirt roads, Viscount Nathaniel Malden. He whispered it to himself softly. It seemed so strange coming from his own lips. Almost like a profanity that mustn't ever be muttered to anyone.

He was riding to New Castle, ready to legalize everything with his lawyers and the banks. He sighed thinking of everything he had ahead of him was beginning to give him a headache. He looked outside the window but the cold had fogged it up making it opaque with little light and visibility. He sighed and once again blew warm breath into his gloves as he rubbed his hands together and leaned back.

His father had left him a great sum of money, and property. The large Malden Manor was made of white stone and the pillars that stood on its front launched high into the air, to where one would have to coil their neck back to see the top of it. Then there were the gardens and the grounds, the barns and much more. Or so you remember

He looked towards the window once more when the coach screech to a stop. Nathaniel flew off his seat and landed on the other side, using his arms to protect his face as he was thrust against the carriage wall.

A muttered a profanity and opened the carriage door. Stepping out into the cold December air that whisked past his face and child his ears to the point where they felt like they would fall off his face. He wrapped his coat around him tighter and walked towards his coachman.

He was calming the horses down as they neighed in protest to the abrupt stop. Once they were somewhat calm Nathaniel turned to him.

“What's happened?” he asked.

“The bridge is cut off m'lord,” the coachman answered in a strong Scottish accent, as he made his way round towards him. “I reckon there's ice beneath all that'a snow. Horses ain't prepared to go on it. 'Sides the storm is 'coming harsher m'lord. Ain't no way we're getting to the next town tonight.” the coachman explained. Nathaniel cursed under his breath. He had been hoping to get a bit farther tonight.

“'Side 'osses ain't gonna take the cold much longer, 'nd I ain't either m'lord. Reckon we'ave to try and rouse someone,” he went on patting a horse as he explained. Nathaniel nodded and looked around. He felt a bit drowsy himself, maybe it was best to rest for the night. There in the midst of the harshly descending snow he saw the glow of a light. It was still too far to walk, about a twenty minute ride, by coach, he sighed.

“Can you take us there?” he pointed at the glowering light. “I'll see if we can stay for the night at least,” he exclaimed. The coachman stared at the light and nodded.

“Aye m'lord. I'll take us there,” he said. Nathaniel nodded and climbed back into the carriage as his coachman began to turn the horses halfway around. It was a few minutes before Nathaniel heard the coachman's yell and the carriage pulling away. He seated himself, deciding to use the twenty minutes still ahead of him to glower in the future that seemed to line up ahead of him.

When the coach stopped once more, and the door opened he stepped once again in the bitter wind. The wisps of cold air blew his lightened brown hair everywhere. Nathaniel stared out at the house in which they had just arrived.

It was almost as wonderful and grand as his residence in New Castle, or at least that's how he remembered it.

His hand found its way to the freezing brass knocked and he banged it harshly against the wooden door. He peered at the door carefully. It was made of thick oak, darkened greatly by age. The intricate details carved on the wood were astonishing. The fleur-de-lys he tought to himself. The Lily.

It took only a few moments before someone opened the door. The man inside was tall and dressed eloquently enough, but he was no Lord, Nathaniel reasoned. Most likely the butler. The man looked at him and opened the door widely.

“Yes, may I help you sir?” he asked. His voice was surprisingly low and deep. Nathaniel quickly thought over his lessons from when he was younger, preparing himself to answer in the most eloquent fashion possible.

“I am Viscount Malden. The road to town had frozen over and my coachman, and I need shelter for the night. I'd be grateful if you brought me to your master, and helped my coachman and horses” he asked. The butler's eyes grew wide.

“Of course m'lord, please follow me,” he said “I'll send someone to help your coachman and the horses,” he said. Nathaniel nodded and stepped into the house. He followed the man to a parlor, welcoming the heat of the fire on the way.

“May I take your overcoat, m'lord?” the butler asked once more. Nathaniel thanked him and asked for his name. The butler introduced himself as, Jarvis.

“If you excuse me m'lord, I shall inform Master Barker of your arrival,” Jarvis said. Nathaniel gave a curt nod and watched as the butler bowed and walked from the room. Nathaniel stood by the fire warming himself up as he waited.

He had never heard of Lord Barker, then again he'd never been to Ashby, before either. By the looks of his surroundings, however, he would say Lord Barker was well on money and acquaintance with the newest fashions.

Jarvis came back a moment later.

“Miss Quake, has informed me that Lord Barker was called away on business this morning. But she has agreed to see you herself, if you wish.” Nathaniel nodded and thanked Jarvis, noting to himself that he failed to mention Lord Barker's field of business. Jarvis bowed his way out once more leaving Nathaniel to thank for a only a few moments.

A second later a door opened on the far side of the parlor. Nathaniel could almost feel his mouth drop as he looked at Miss Quake for the first time. Thought the door had walked a grand beauty.
Dressed in a large, but flattering burgundy gown stood Miss Quaker. Her big hazel-green eyes shinned brightly with the glow of the fire, almost as if they held a flame in them as well. Her hair was a curled bushy mess on her head, a brown so hard, it reminded him of sweet-tasting chocolate.

He noted, though, that she had a petite figure, though definitely not lacking the curves where they were necessary. Her face was round, her nose was large and delicate. Her lips were small and pink, but the combination fit nicely on her. She smiled and walked towards him.

Giving him a small curtsy she stood before him, almost making Nathaniel's heart flutter. He gave her a courteous bow and too stood.

“Lord Malden, I am Abigail Quake,” she said. Her voice was sweet, like honey, he reasoned.


“Unfortunately my cousin has been called away on business this morning and will not be returning until after Yule. However, Jarvis has informed me you and your coachman need shelter for the night, yes?” she asked.

He had the oddest feeling she was holding back something in her voice. Almost as if she wanted to release such politeness and be free to speak in other manners. I know the feeling.

“Yes, ma'am. I would greatly appreciate it, if you would let us shelter here for only the night,” he spoked lightly. Abigail seemed very pleased with the fact of having guests. It was much a surprised, though, that her face fell slightly when he mentioned he'd only stay for the night. She recomposed herself though and smiled.

“Well then, I shall have Jarvis set up a room for you, and place your man under the care of one of our servants. I'll also tell him to hold back dinner for you, I'm sure you must come ravenous,” she said in a kind voice.

“Famished,” Nathaniel answered her thankfully. She nodded and called Jarvis in giving him her orders.

“I do hope everything is to your liking, m'lord” she smiled. Nathaniel felt something drop to his lower body.

“I'm sure it will be more than sufficient, ma'am,” he complimented.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Secret Affair


Do you remember?

It was high above the city

All the people looked miniscule

It was gray, the clouds in the sky...


We were on the very top of the roof

The very highest part,

When you took your hands from my eyes

I smiled at you...


My chest swelled up

My throat clogged

My stomach almost turned

A pleasureable pain filled me up


I wish it wouldn't end

You staring at me

I almost imagined it

Your eyes glistening down


I wondered what it was

About me

That kept you staring

I would ask


Then out of the blue...

I was against the wall

Oh so gently

Your arms around me


Your lips traveled mine

Your tongue teased my lip

Then I gasped

And we clashed


My mind went blank

I couldn't think

Only feel

My knees buckle


You held me up,

Today I sit

I daydream

And I laugh


We were such

Young Children

Where did it all go?

Where are we now?


Then you enter the room

My breath still catches

and I'm still so lost

And suddenly I remember


The secret affair is over...



But your still here...

Monday, December 1, 2008

Memoirs...

So today I have decided I am going to light up the mood!!! Here are a few pics of me and my friends! Enjoy:

This is one of my BFF Angie and I, this is her fav pic.


Angie painted me as super woman....hihi...dnt laugh!




Erika at her best!



What? It was a firedrill, we had nothing better to do!

Walking to Class!




Biology Yo!

My fav pic in Biology! We're so goofy!

I have many more, unfortunatelly I don't have the patience to put them all up...I might another time, if you ask me to (which you won't) but still. Hope this was an okay post.

xoxo

Chaos

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Stained Hands


Drip, Drop,
Drip, Drop,

His blood
Poured through
Her hands...
He had died
Jumping in
Front of her
Died helping
Her live...
Now her hands
Were stained
Like her heart
Her soul
Her...life
She died
Tonight
By his side
so that they
Could dream
Internally Together
She stained
Her hands
and drowned
in love and
death,tonight

Drip Drop...

Friday, November 21, 2008

Living Life...




Living a life so sweet
Living it as long as I can
Running from the problems
Running far away
Taking deep breath
Taking you to stay
With me forever
With me till the end
I'm Living Life so sweet
With You...
xoxo
Chaos

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Cause to Love You <3



I miss you...
I can't say your name without crying anymore
I can't be with someone without thinking about you
You've given me everything
And I slowly ripped it to shreds when I left...
I do love you, I've realized
At least the type of love teenagers get
The one they never forget
Their first love...
Cause loving you,
Does really mean so so much more...

<3

To All My Friends



I dedicate this song and post to you
Remember all the good times we had
All the bad ones too
Remember in the end
I'll always love all of you!

To DOTM!!!



To the girls, whom I have spent five years
Talking to on the phone,
Sleeping at their houses,
Crying on their shoulders,
Telling secrets to,
Making fun of,
Pranking,
Living the life with...
Hope it always stays the same...
To Catty, Vanessa, and Jimena,
Love,
Serena

Adventures...




To Beatriz
My younger sister
Because with you
I have THIS much fun
Because our adventures
Are as crazy as Lilo and Stitch
and because we're Ohana (family)!

POCOYO DANCA!!!




To Squishy
Itty Tata
My little brother
Because you make
me laugh
and because we
love to watch this show
together
MUAHZ
Chaos

Fall For You




To Mike,
Because with you
Everything seems
To be brighting slowly
Because you showed me
How to believe in magic
Because we've fought,
And made up,
Because you've helped me.
Because for five years
You never gave up on me
And now I refuse to give
Up on you...
xoxo
Chaos

Dedicating it all! ^_^

Today, I've got tons of dedications. In light that Thanksgiving is coming soon I've decided to show everyone in my life how thankful I am to have them there...So here it is to all of you, who make my days brighter, who shatter my shadows, who make me laugh, who take me to wonderland everyday, and of course even those whose only smile can brighten my world... These next posts are dedicated to you....







Ricardo!
Pk ate kuando estamos
Separados pelo um oceano
Consegues me fazer rir
Pk ate kuando pensas k nao
Estou a pensar em ti
Why I picked this song for you?
Open your eyes sweetheart
I care...
There's a whole new world
Right in front of you!

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Gummy Bears and Lollipops





To BRIAN....WHOOO
I have to dedicate something to you,
Because I wouldn't be anywhere without you.
My mano, my brother, one of my best friends...
Why I picked this song? Easy....
Because with you nothing can be normal, or any less fun...:P
ily
xoxo
Chaos

You!

Today I posted three times because all of my posts are dedicated to some of the most special men in my life. And I believe each one of them deserves his own post. So here I am for the second time today hoping you enjoy...







To Tyler,
This song is here for many reasons,
One, because with you I'm not afraid to be myself
Two, because I love you that much
Three, because with you I think of the future
Four, because you help me trust myself and others,
Five, because no one plays the games we play
And lastly because me...
I see you...

Once Upon a December...





To Nathan,
Someone I can't live without...
Because even though we don't remember
You said you'd marry me someday,
Because even though you call me Granger
You still jumped in that pool with me...
Because even though we've fought a million times
You stilled hugged me when I cried on your shoulder,
Because even though I won't admit it outloud
I couldn't live without knowing that,
Once upon that december
You didn't trade me for her...

Monday, November 17, 2008

Neverland...



To you my love,
To the dreams we once had, and the ones that will follow us through life. To the wise words that flow through our minds, and our child's heart at play. Because you love the story, and because I love you...I dedicate My Neverland to you...
May we never grow up...
Your Very First Lost Girl
Ever feel like that?
Lungs without air?
Ever taken such a trip?
That your breath was taken away?
Have you ever stood there?
Smiling when you want to cry?
Have you ever dreamnt of swimming with the stars?
Kissing in the rain?
Ever taken a trip down that road?
Ever went swimming with sharks?
Jumped in a pool fully clothed?
Ever dreamed the entire day?
Ever been so recless, people thought you crazy?
Have You?
Been there I mean...
To that little place in your mind,
Where you're dreams soar,
And your fears diminish.
Have you taken a fall?
That makes your heart stop?
That makes you close your eyes,
And dream of another day?
Have you left your heart to them,
to decide whether to break or fill?
Have you ever been saved?
Or even dreamed of reaching there?
Have you traveled Neverland?
Wished to never come back?
Have you ever hoped not grow up?
And worken up to see you're another day older?
Have you?
I have, done all these things...
And in the end, I'm still standing here,
Without Air,
Yet somehow finding a way to breath...
xoxo,
Chaos

Friday, November 14, 2008

Chaos


I'm back I know...took me long enough. So the point of this blog was to BS a lot. And personally I like to bs...a lot, but unfortunately that is just not working for me anymore. I know surprised...not as much as I am. I am of course unable to say that of all the weird, chaotic things I have talked about I did not talk about the weirdest and most chaotic of them all.


Yeah, I'm talking about...Moi.


I mean my pen name is Chaos, and there is of course tons of reasons why I chose that name for myself here are a few of the top, oh I don't know, 100.


4. Everyone says its the only way to describe me in general.

3. It describes the perfectly the mess in my mind that i thoroughly enjoy.

2.I can't seem to find a better way to describe my writings (as if you haven't noticed)

1. Basically it describe my life overall...


So when I say I must talk about all things Chaotic I must first talk about myself. After all it is only right that all humans should be selfish once in a while and I have decided it is right now that I want to be selfish. I am going to try to be as "honest" about myself as I can.


I'm young, (enough not to tell you all my age), yet my brain seems to be a million years old. It has little flashes where it just sends me into a wise and strange world. I daydream a lot and have mostly nightmares at night. (Which I had one last night, oh my god...) *small chuckle* uh...did I mention i get distracted? Well not as much as Kika but still.


I'm extremely clumsy and many say I'm a danger magnet, have a death wish, or am just plain uncoordinated. My mom describes as "If there was a large empty room with a single nail sticking out in one place I would find a way to walk over that nail and trip on it...." so yeah...


I love to write (as if you haven't noticed). My mother also had the pleasure of saying that "My daughter's favorite sport is sitting in front of a computer writing stories". Mothers, don't you just love 'em.


I have a knack of being depressing, and I try to lighten the mood and be happy, so that it doesn't annoy people. Because seriously how many of you want to be around people that are always throwing pity parties, right? I complain a lot, again you've probably noticed it before. I am also extremely sarcastic. Which you don't need telling to.


*Guys*


I have a lot of guy friends. Mostly because I think most girls are ruthless bitches whom i hate to put up with (I say this because I am a girl and I know how we are)


I'm much rather into a guy who is BRUTALLY HONEST with me rather than ROMANTIC...I mean being romantic is nice, but the truth benefits me more.


I am very blunt towards people, that often gets me into trouble. I have no secrets and I will tell you everything I think of you to your face (in the right place, at the right time). I would appreciate it if you did the same to me. I don't hate or talk shit about you just because a friend of mine thinks you're a bitch/whore/etc... Before I talk I make sure what I'm saying is 100% true.


I'm usually called a whore, (again a lot of guy FRIENDS!!! Nothing more). I get frustrated and really pissed off at the smalled things and therefore it gives me an anger management problem. Only because I hold my pain/anger to the point where it causes me physical pain. So please for my own health sake and yours as well Don't piss me off.


I love all my friends, and can't stand hearing someone even thinking about talking crap about them. If you have a problem with a friend of mine, do me and the rest of the world a favor, and keep it between the two of you because if you so much as even come to me about them well...(God bless your soul and the rest of the people standing in the room that will have to hear the stream of profanities that will become something my eighth grade teacher called "verbal diarrhea..."


I'm absolutely done talking about myself, my flaws, and my well...you know other things (I personally wouldn't call them strengths.


I feel very tired and unfortunately can't seem to think of a good way to end this post. It wasn't exactly what I was thinking of putting up here but that's what I came up with...So to all you faithful readers...


I less then three you (<3)

(Get it?)
xoxo
luv

Chaos


Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Manos....


To Brian, you make me smile when I cry, you make me laugh when I scream, and most of all you are always the unique, random and loveble guy I remember meeting in Den Of Lions 5 years ago....

I Love You Mano

_Chaos_

Today I was going to post up a very LONG post where I was going to ramble on and on about the stress that I have been putting up with lately, however now I've decided I'm going to just put up random quotes, because this post is dedicated to the most random and awsome best friend a girl could ask for.... ^_^


"Never laugh at a clown with a gun." -- Anonymous
"The truth hurts, doesn't it Hapsburg? Oh, sure, maybe not as much as jumping on a bike with the seat missing." -- Lt. Frank Drebin in Naked Gun 2 1/2: The Smell of Fear
"I buy women shoes, and they use them to walk away from me." -- Mickey Rooney
"Your request for no MSG was ignored." -- fortune cookie
"Holy Kleenex, Batman! It was right under our nose and we blew it." -- Robin
"Insanity runs in my family...it practically gallops." -- Arsenic & Old Lace
"Tough guys don't do math. Tough guys fry chicken for a living." -- Jaime Escalante in Stand and Deliver
"Sometimes a road less travelled is less travelled for a reason." -- Jerry Seinfeld
"He's committed pesticide!!!" -- James and the Giant Peach
"Well, I'm sure we can resolve this in a mature way. Right, Mr. Poopypants?" -- from Naked Gun 2 1/2: The Smell of Fear
"Aw, what happened? Did your parents lose a bet with God?" -- from the movie Roxanne
“Before TV, two world wars. After TV, zero.” -- American Broadcasting Company ad campaign




Cry me a river build me a bridge do us all a favor and jump off of it.
A northern fairy tale starts out "once upon a time.."A southern fairy tale starts out "y'all ain't gon' believe this shit!"
Murphy's Law of Combat:
"Never forget that your weapon was manufactured by the lowest bidder"
SEXY; its not what you wear. its how you take it off
When I have a kid, I want to put him in one of those strollers
for twins and then run around the mall looking frantic.
I don't have a girlfriend. But I do know a woman
who'd be mad at me for saying that
I know a lot about cars. I can look at a car's headlights
and tell you exactly which way it's coming.
An escalator can never break. It can only become stairs.
You would never see an "Escalator Temporarily Out Of Order" sign,
just "Escalator Temporarily Stairs. Sorry for the convenience."
The only reason Santa is so jolly is because
he knows where all the bad girls live.
Don't spend $2 to dry clean a shirt. donate it to the salvation army instead. They'll clean it & put it on a hanger, Next morning buy it back for 75 cents!
I respect vegetarians and their decisions, but my thinking is ~ I'm on top of the food chain here,
so if I can get it, I can eat it.
if a cow figures out how to kill me and eat me, more power to him!
Sex is like spades. If you don't have a good partner u better have a good hand!
The best thing about Alzheimer’s is:
You can hide your own Easter eggs
Don't get high on life: cereal hurts when it gets stuck up your nose
If you could read my mind...you'd be the 2nd smartest person on earth
I have a hobby. I have the world's largest collection of seashells. I keep it scattered on beaches all over the world. Maybe you've seen some of it.
My girlfriend's weird. One day she asked me,
"If you could know how and when you were going to die,
would you want to know?" I said, "No." She said, "Okay, forget it."
When I die, I want to go like my grandfather did, peacefully in his sleep.
Not yelling and screaming like all the passengers in his car.
After a year in therapy, my psychiatrist said to me,
'Maybe life isn't for everyone.'
Have you ever noticed? Anybody going slower than you is an idiot,
and anyone going faster than you is a maniac
I'm not into working out. My philosophy: No pain, no pain
Join the army, meet interesting people, kill them.
Evening news is where they begin with 'Good evening',
and then proceed to tell you why it isn't.
I like work. It fascinates me. I sit and look at it for hours.

My Fav quotes from BRIAN!

Leonor: "Come on Brian, I gotta show you something..." *Brian starts walking with her suddenly he stops and looks at other kid.
Brian: So Junior, what are you going name your son Junior Junior?

Brian: Oh My God, Leonor, I just learned how to snort soda through my nose, wanna see?
Leonor: Sure *Brian snorts soda through nose*
Brian: Ow, I got gas in my nose.

Brian: Hey did you hear about, chocolate, the game?

Brian: That's racist
Leonor: How is me telling you my keyboard is on Caps Lock being racist?
Brian: Stop acting like you know everything. The variable X is not 4...Jeez. So stop being so judgemental
Leonor: God
Brian: Why are you bringing him into the conversation?

That's it for now

XoXo

_Chaos_