Miss Chaos

I've lived a thousand dreams and lies
Learn to hate, to shout, despise

I've gone down that road before

Wasted time and galore...

I've dreamnt of feeling free

From all the minds leaning on me

I've wished for peace and wondering

Hoped to see what you've been seeing.

I wish the knife would stop

That that crimson would just be mopped

I've suffered from heart and soul

My story will now be told...

1993 was the year; a blond, blue eyes girl was born.

Her hair turned deep dark brown and her eyes into hazel green.
She learned to hate herself, and not trust what is not seen

So you can guess from all this, the small child in despair

Would never once learn what love was or compare it...

To all of live compare it to the heart

This loving child was doomed from the very start

She felt a mother's love, but even worse her pain

She protected her siblings from cold harsh rain

She smiled to her friends pretended to laugh along

She made herself look confident and strong

But the years went by slowly and this beauty could not part

She looked at herself in the mirror, and tears would only start

To drip down her face, as she questioned her existence

Little miss Chaos scared of her own resistance...

Upon came a soul, one beautifully deep

Free-spirited and all but weak...

She showed the way to a heart of gold

Sang a song that was meant for a soul

But as the little girl, who was all grown up now,

Felt such love, she ran with self doubt

She hoped that such feeling would leave her alone

Wished so hard to be away from this wonderful home

Away from all this because she was scared

Little Miss Chaos became quite scarce

She began to fade away, before all your eyes

Tell the truth now, how many of you realized?

She sung happy songs, danced a whole lot

But little Miss Chaos was soon going to rot

Listen my kitties, as the tale comes to end
Live your whole life...don't be scared...

xoxo

Chaos